i know that i'm supposed to do a chim philosophy. i was going to write about multiple universes (ref michael crichton's timeline) but some other things came up that kept it from my mind. i'll get to it sooner or later.
firstly, THE A LEVELS ARE OVER!! YAY!!!!!!!!!!!! finally i can get a life. it wasn't that bad. but then, it wasn't that great either. but at least it's over. i just realised that i haven't been this free since after the o levels. seriously. the past 2 years, all my holidays have been spent either in studies or choir. now that i'm so free, i have absolutely no idea what to do with myself. i'll be rotting for the next 6 months. by the time i start uni i'll be decomposed. better go n find myself something to do. that day mdm yew mentioned something about an internship. after trying and failing to email her twice (i even asked howard for her email in case my info was wrong) i decided that fate doesn't want me to take this internship. which is kinda a pity actually. it would have saved me the trouble of having to search the classified ads.
mummy and daddy have just come back from the BEATELS concert that me and andrew treated them to. so proud. they said they really enjoyed themselves. wonderful. it was meant to be an early christmas present but it somehow turned into belated anniversary present. but, glad they enjoyed themselves. btw, it's BEATELS not BEATLES. the BEATELS are a tribute band to the BEATLES. get it? if not then check the web. they say they saw dr s there. surprise surprise! and they sat right behind her as well. even more surprising. interesting that dr s was there. :D hey, she has a life too.
thought i'd talk a bit about the amanda issue that they were discussing just now. i have no idea what is going on except what i saw on littlecrosses blog and what they were saying just now. personally i don't know amanda that well. just know her name and face. i always thought that she's so brave to wear the type of clothes she does despite having the form she has. wish i was brave enough to do that.
well, just now, i was reminded of a couple of my friends i used to (and still) know. friend X, Y, Z (i won't use their real names. it may be sensitive to them) amanda's situation kinda reminded me of them. myself also to some extent. i mean, i know what it's like to be outcast and isolated, especially if it's self-isolation. (the next bit is talking about myself but i don't know how to use i in such situations) it feels really horrible, especially if you self isolate but no one bothers to try to make you feel welcome but leave you by yourself. and, you try to put on a brave front but inside you really feel so bad. horrible feeling. and even though you know that it's hurting you, it's just so difficult to integrate back into the group cos they don't care about you anymore. (i wanted to talk about friend X, Y, Z but i discovered that the more i discussed it, the more lost i became, so better not) but the point is that sometimes, being isolated is a conscious choice. and after a while, people will just lose interest in trying to help you fit in. that's where people will start to see you as different, weird, outcast. even talk bad about you behind your back. i guess, there's really no one solution. either the group or one in the group decides to try to help until dropping and really losing hope (that needs a really patient person. i know) or they can just leave the outcast alone until she's ready to come back and let her know that she's always welcome. it's difficult enough to try to come back to the group. it's worse that you don't know how others really think about you. (if their welcome is real or just put on to make you feel better) it's horrible if you come back and people don't welcome you and treat you differently.
i don't know where this is leading to. just wanted to say out my thoughts now that they're a bit more composed.
Saturday, November 27, 2004
Friday, November 26, 2004
tag board issue
i know that people are asking for a tag board. so far, i'm still working on it. i've got the html thing for the tag board but i'm still trying to figure out where to put it. don't know how to put it within the entire html layout of the blog. some help would be really appreciated. :D
Wednesday, November 24, 2004
memories of meridian
how soon 2 years in meridian have flown past. so many memories and so many more that i cannot recall now. so many new experiences. now's the time for a flashback: (WARNING: it's VERY long)
Admission and 1st 3 months: i remember the day i got the admission letter, monday 23 dec 02. so exciting. i wanted to go to meridian ever since miss lai came to sac and brainwashed us. on the first day, my first impression was "this place is so hot" literally. where's the trees? where's the grass? what's that thing there? oh, it's just the future field (under construction). it was my first experience with the world of guys. 10 years in a girls school has limited my experience with guys to the fellows at church and some of my teachers. remember the days in regulus 5 with maureen.how fun filled it was with the teachers playing the orientation games with us. i remember that the 1st 3 months arts batch only included 3 sacians, angie, priscilla and me. remembering the first choir auditions with mr yong. he asked me if i had a sore throat (which i had cos of cheering too much the day before). poor duan hui had to sing solo cos she missed the initial audition. but she made it! she and shok li were my companions. remember those horrible siglap students forever cutting the queue at the bus 358. but then, mjc was the intruder so we shouldn't complain. then, there was the formation of 03A101 under mr tang. i miss the 1st 3 months class the most. remember drooling over davin, singing happy birthday in 4 languages in mrs quek's class, bitching about mdm yew's 'bitchiness' (don't worry mam, we love you now!), doing 'midsummer night's dream' singapore style, running outside the school for pe and just having fun during recess and lunch. i made one of my best friends then, poh lin. remember that afternoon when she said to me that i was like her best friends in sec school. with that, we became friends. remember voting for the uniform colour. it was supposed to be blue-gray but it turned out more blue than gray. one of the guys wanted to sabo us and vote for purple. alas! happy days would not last. o-level results were released. goodbyes had to be said, brainwashing had to be done and friendships reformed.
2nd intake: i was in vega 1 for the 2nd orientation. maybe cos i didn't give vega a chance out of childish thinking, but i didn't enjoy it as much as the 1st time. vega 1 was where i met toh ying. what a cute girl. i built my friendship with her at the first meeting at the aljunied mrt. SARS struck. then, the formation of the new 03A101 with naresh at the helm. he was to be my econs torturer for the next 2 years (ok, he's not that bad). the new choir and new friendships were made. i met my major crush. remembering the memorable singing for arts festival at esplanade. what a memorable experience! remember the craziest thing i ever did at meridian. singing eres tu a-capella, quartet at the school soiree. i don't know how we managed to pull it off, so embarrassing. the pw days where we frantically rushed deadlines and dealt with crazy issues. poh lin and sumi and everyone else torturing my poor bear. the bear turned from yellow to gray, from fat to skinny. then there was the cold war poh lin, sumi and i went through. regrettably, it was not the only cold war we experienced. i don't even remember how it happened actually. thankfully, we all hugged and made up, our friendship pulled through. the choir competition and the trip to genting was wonderful. remembering the endless hours of practice in school and siglap, all the moaning, groaning, sore throats and precarious time management schedules (the promos were here) tightened the knot of friendship among the choristers. sharing a room with toh ying at genting, my first roller coaster ride, sneaking back to the hotel at midnight after breaking the curfew (we almost bumped into mr yong), singing at the festival and winning silver, silver, gold. how i miss those times.
Year 2: back to meridian. this time, as seniors with J1 juniors. so sad, having to share the school. suddenly the building seemed so much smaller that before. we lived under the shadow of the As, so not as carefree as year 1. remember the lit trip to england and staying back to study under mdm yew's supervision. how fun that was, surviving the eternal plane journey, freezing at lake district, scaring ourselves at york, plotting to burn down cambridge, hanging around london. i remember bra got so excited at the uncensored version of love actually on the plane. A101 shrank a little. we had now 2 maths teachers. i guess our dismal maths results and conduct during maths class prompted this move. Then, there was the choir concert with the trial by jury opera. the 1st full pioneer choir performing at our first concert in victoria concert hall. how great that toh ying's father managed to record most of the concert. it's a record for our efforts. doing the GP higher abilities programme. didn't exactly learn much from irving (he still owes me that crazy essay) but colin cheong's philosophy class was interesting. love meridian day and dancing in the LT was fun. it was probably the 1st big thing A101 did together as a class. then, there was duan hui and i spending countless hours on the phone discussing our various (still unresolved) guy issues. meeting the crazy juniors christy, shi yun, zophia...brightened up my life so much. remember collating that 4 page survey for miss ho. 4 pages! 18 people in class!!! it took me, poh lin and sumi 3 hours. then, there was the death-defying training for the napfa. at last, i got my gold! at the last napfa of my life. what an achievement. last school day at meridian was another brainwashing session and we FINALLY got to sing the school song, for the 1st and last time. A101 had econs lesson on the last day when everyone else was having fun. remember that crazy video clip where dr s was going to teach econs and naresh was going to teach shakespheare. one last hug, one last smile, ON TO THE A-LEVELS!
Today: today, the last time i'll be wearing the meridian uniform and badge as a student of meridian. i don't know what to say. the last 2 years had it's ups and downs. what a roller coaster ride of emotions. looking back at the times we laughed together, studied together, cried together, suffered together, ate together, played together. i'll miss it so much. after today, it's goodbye until our paths cross again. thank you to all of you who has made a difference in my life.
the Future: looking on to the prom, choir alumni, mjc opening ceremony (yes, the official ceremony is after the pioneer batch graduated), a-level results, hopefully meeting again in university.
this post is dedicated to all my friends in meridian: (in no particular order) A101, poh lin, sumi, duan hui, the GPALS, bra, kuok howe, lee mei, nga chi, maureen, zaidah, jasmine, toh ying, aisha, howard, sam, denise, lydia, cla, angie, mdm yew, dr s, miss ho, all my teachers, christy, reuben, adrian, michelle, wanjing, jeanette, the choir, cassandra, kok yong, jeffery, eugenia, wei ying (and snowy), jeanie, yue si, mickey, siew kia, hwee yee, chatarina, su san, shi bin, fatima, gladys, hafiz...(i've got brain block. if i've accidently missed you out, let me know and i'll add you.)
Admission and 1st 3 months: i remember the day i got the admission letter, monday 23 dec 02. so exciting. i wanted to go to meridian ever since miss lai came to sac and brainwashed us. on the first day, my first impression was "this place is so hot" literally. where's the trees? where's the grass? what's that thing there? oh, it's just the future field (under construction). it was my first experience with the world of guys. 10 years in a girls school has limited my experience with guys to the fellows at church and some of my teachers. remember the days in regulus 5 with maureen.how fun filled it was with the teachers playing the orientation games with us. i remember that the 1st 3 months arts batch only included 3 sacians, angie, priscilla and me. remembering the first choir auditions with mr yong. he asked me if i had a sore throat (which i had cos of cheering too much the day before). poor duan hui had to sing solo cos she missed the initial audition. but she made it! she and shok li were my companions. remember those horrible siglap students forever cutting the queue at the bus 358. but then, mjc was the intruder so we shouldn't complain. then, there was the formation of 03A101 under mr tang. i miss the 1st 3 months class the most. remember drooling over davin, singing happy birthday in 4 languages in mrs quek's class, bitching about mdm yew's 'bitchiness' (don't worry mam, we love you now!), doing 'midsummer night's dream' singapore style, running outside the school for pe and just having fun during recess and lunch. i made one of my best friends then, poh lin. remember that afternoon when she said to me that i was like her best friends in sec school. with that, we became friends. remember voting for the uniform colour. it was supposed to be blue-gray but it turned out more blue than gray. one of the guys wanted to sabo us and vote for purple. alas! happy days would not last. o-level results were released. goodbyes had to be said, brainwashing had to be done and friendships reformed.
2nd intake: i was in vega 1 for the 2nd orientation. maybe cos i didn't give vega a chance out of childish thinking, but i didn't enjoy it as much as the 1st time. vega 1 was where i met toh ying. what a cute girl. i built my friendship with her at the first meeting at the aljunied mrt. SARS struck. then, the formation of the new 03A101 with naresh at the helm. he was to be my econs torturer for the next 2 years (ok, he's not that bad). the new choir and new friendships were made. i met my major crush. remembering the memorable singing for arts festival at esplanade. what a memorable experience! remember the craziest thing i ever did at meridian. singing eres tu a-capella, quartet at the school soiree. i don't know how we managed to pull it off, so embarrassing. the pw days where we frantically rushed deadlines and dealt with crazy issues. poh lin and sumi and everyone else torturing my poor bear. the bear turned from yellow to gray, from fat to skinny. then there was the cold war poh lin, sumi and i went through. regrettably, it was not the only cold war we experienced. i don't even remember how it happened actually. thankfully, we all hugged and made up, our friendship pulled through. the choir competition and the trip to genting was wonderful. remembering the endless hours of practice in school and siglap, all the moaning, groaning, sore throats and precarious time management schedules (the promos were here) tightened the knot of friendship among the choristers. sharing a room with toh ying at genting, my first roller coaster ride, sneaking back to the hotel at midnight after breaking the curfew (we almost bumped into mr yong), singing at the festival and winning silver, silver, gold. how i miss those times.
Year 2: back to meridian. this time, as seniors with J1 juniors. so sad, having to share the school. suddenly the building seemed so much smaller that before. we lived under the shadow of the As, so not as carefree as year 1. remember the lit trip to england and staying back to study under mdm yew's supervision. how fun that was, surviving the eternal plane journey, freezing at lake district, scaring ourselves at york, plotting to burn down cambridge, hanging around london. i remember bra got so excited at the uncensored version of love actually on the plane. A101 shrank a little. we had now 2 maths teachers. i guess our dismal maths results and conduct during maths class prompted this move. Then, there was the choir concert with the trial by jury opera. the 1st full pioneer choir performing at our first concert in victoria concert hall. how great that toh ying's father managed to record most of the concert. it's a record for our efforts. doing the GP higher abilities programme. didn't exactly learn much from irving (he still owes me that crazy essay) but colin cheong's philosophy class was interesting. love meridian day and dancing in the LT was fun. it was probably the 1st big thing A101 did together as a class. then, there was duan hui and i spending countless hours on the phone discussing our various (still unresolved) guy issues. meeting the crazy juniors christy, shi yun, zophia...brightened up my life so much. remember collating that 4 page survey for miss ho. 4 pages! 18 people in class!!! it took me, poh lin and sumi 3 hours. then, there was the death-defying training for the napfa. at last, i got my gold! at the last napfa of my life. what an achievement. last school day at meridian was another brainwashing session and we FINALLY got to sing the school song, for the 1st and last time. A101 had econs lesson on the last day when everyone else was having fun. remember that crazy video clip where dr s was going to teach econs and naresh was going to teach shakespheare. one last hug, one last smile, ON TO THE A-LEVELS!
Today: today, the last time i'll be wearing the meridian uniform and badge as a student of meridian. i don't know what to say. the last 2 years had it's ups and downs. what a roller coaster ride of emotions. looking back at the times we laughed together, studied together, cried together, suffered together, ate together, played together. i'll miss it so much. after today, it's goodbye until our paths cross again. thank you to all of you who has made a difference in my life.
the Future: looking on to the prom, choir alumni, mjc opening ceremony (yes, the official ceremony is after the pioneer batch graduated), a-level results, hopefully meeting again in university.
this post is dedicated to all my friends in meridian: (in no particular order) A101, poh lin, sumi, duan hui, the GPALS, bra, kuok howe, lee mei, nga chi, maureen, zaidah, jasmine, toh ying, aisha, howard, sam, denise, lydia, cla, angie, mdm yew, dr s, miss ho, all my teachers, christy, reuben, adrian, michelle, wanjing, jeanette, the choir, cassandra, kok yong, jeffery, eugenia, wei ying (and snowy), jeanie, yue si, mickey, siew kia, hwee yee, chatarina, su san, shi bin, fatima, gladys, hafiz...(i've got brain block. if i've accidently missed you out, let me know and i'll add you.)
Monday, November 22, 2004
Sunday, November 21, 2004
Dear Diary...
well, it's the end of another week. let's see, yes, this is definately worth mentioning. jacqueline sent me my first christmas card of the year. wow!!! that's early!!!!!!!!! but it was a sweet gesture. brightened up my week. she gave me her blog address. her blog is so great. wish i knew how to do that. never mind. after the As i'll figure it out somehow.
exams are almost over. hang in there. once wednesday 11am is past, it'll all be over!!! muahahaha!!!! yup. still left with mdm yew's paper and econs mcq and drq. shouldn't be too much of a problem hopefully. pohlin's already planning what she wants to do after her As. i think she ends tomorrow. lucky history people.
i'm kinda disappointed about the results of the singapore idol spectacular on friday. so sad that olinda got eliminated. i was rooting for her. she's the one with the great voice. sylvester is too cheena, taufik is ok. he appeals to a bigger audience. i predict that he will win. no need to watch the finals. i think that getting eliminated was a bad thing for olinda. i mean, even if sylvester is eliminated, he still has a spot in the chinese market to go too. same with taufik and the malay market. but olinda... well, everyone knows how difficult it is for local artistes to break into the english music scene. whatever it is, i didn't vote, so maybe i shouldn't comment too much.
on a more happy note, i've bought my prom dress! it's really nice, black, boat neck, sleeveless. the problem is that it's sleeveless and my upper arms are really fat. :p sigh. i've got two weeks before prom to think about how to look good. also, i've subscribed to this online site that teaches free magic tricks. woah! it's so cool. but i have yet to find the time to master it yet. after the As... heeheehee.(everything after the As)
andrew's friend jonathan joined (i think) the st stephen's choir. haha, he defected from olps. he plays the organ really well. hope he's staying. then i don't have to kill myself practicing so much. those stupid feet pedals, can't see what i'm doing. just now i heard him commenting tht our choir was really small and olps choir was 60 strong etc etc. you know what i should have told him? i should have said that our choir is proportional to the size of our congregation. things like that always pop up in my mind way after the time is over to say it. *sigh*
exams are almost over. hang in there. once wednesday 11am is past, it'll all be over!!! muahahaha!!!! yup. still left with mdm yew's paper and econs mcq and drq. shouldn't be too much of a problem hopefully. pohlin's already planning what she wants to do after her As. i think she ends tomorrow. lucky history people.
i'm kinda disappointed about the results of the singapore idol spectacular on friday. so sad that olinda got eliminated. i was rooting for her. she's the one with the great voice. sylvester is too cheena, taufik is ok. he appeals to a bigger audience. i predict that he will win. no need to watch the finals. i think that getting eliminated was a bad thing for olinda. i mean, even if sylvester is eliminated, he still has a spot in the chinese market to go too. same with taufik and the malay market. but olinda... well, everyone knows how difficult it is for local artistes to break into the english music scene. whatever it is, i didn't vote, so maybe i shouldn't comment too much.
on a more happy note, i've bought my prom dress! it's really nice, black, boat neck, sleeveless. the problem is that it's sleeveless and my upper arms are really fat. :p sigh. i've got two weeks before prom to think about how to look good. also, i've subscribed to this online site that teaches free magic tricks. woah! it's so cool. but i have yet to find the time to master it yet. after the As... heeheehee.(everything after the As)
andrew's friend jonathan joined (i think) the st stephen's choir. haha, he defected from olps. he plays the organ really well. hope he's staying. then i don't have to kill myself practicing so much. those stupid feet pedals, can't see what i'm doing. just now i heard him commenting tht our choir was really small and olps choir was 60 strong etc etc. you know what i should have told him? i should have said that our choir is proportional to the size of our congregation. things like that always pop up in my mind way after the time is over to say it. *sigh*
Wednesday, November 17, 2004
dear diary...
halfway through the week. finally have some privacy to write for my blog. well, maths is over. econs essays are over, shakespheare and donne is over. YAY!!!!! overall it wasn't that bad. maths 2 was ghastly. first question already cannot do. i think i lost at least 15 marks cos i left the questions blank. just couldn't do. antony and cleopatra was bad. i think i picked the wrong question to write about. i did the one about shakespheare creating an epic scale play. :P donne was great. religious poems. haha. wierd. the one i hate the most is the one that i think i did the best. measure for measure i did the one about shakespheare exploring sexuality. another difficult one but i think (i hope) it was in point.
econs was much better than the prelims i think. i think it's such an achievement. i wrote 3 full essays in 2hrs 15 mins. oh the pain! (finger cramps) well, at least it's over. haha!!!! never ever have to touch econs essays again!!!!! apparently sam was right. the essays that came out were unususal. needs more current affairs knowledge that GP. just now, i wanted to do the market failure question. i studied for market failure. but the question required to write about singapore's policies to deal with market externalities. and i have absoultely no idea what policies singapore has. and in the middle of the exam is no time to think about it.
sumi was saying that i seem so zen calm. weird though. the only time i had a panic attack during the As was during GP. other than that... while people around me were all going slightly hysterical. weird. so zen. wonder why. even grace was seemed slightly panicky. maybe, for econs anyway, it's cos i'm already prepared for the worse case scenerio - failure. maybe if we prepare for the worse, we won't feel so bad?
anyway, exam time is no life time. thursday verena is having steamboat at her house and i can't go. as usual. have pc on friday so have to prepare at home. sad. friday, mummy, andrew, jonathan and linus are going to watch 'the incredibles'. they've got 4 free tickets. but i can't go also cos my exam ends too late to rush to the cinema. sigh. oh the trials of being a student. never mind. once 24 nov is past, freedom is mine!!! muahahahahahaha!!!!!!!!!!!
ok, some other stuff. last sunday was ruth's holy communion. no offense to anyone but it wasn't exactly obvious that there was a communion. with the exception of fr khoo mentioning it at the beginning of mass and during the homily (just a mention, mind you) there was almost no indication that it was a special day. what a difference from my time. during my time, we had to do the readings, offertery... time changes. cos of the confirmation camp, there were so few members in the choir. wow, hadn't sang so properly since i left mj choir. have to do some vocal training on my own so that i won't lapse.
oh well, all for now. cya next time!!
econs was much better than the prelims i think. i think it's such an achievement. i wrote 3 full essays in 2hrs 15 mins. oh the pain! (finger cramps) well, at least it's over. haha!!!! never ever have to touch econs essays again!!!!! apparently sam was right. the essays that came out were unususal. needs more current affairs knowledge that GP. just now, i wanted to do the market failure question. i studied for market failure. but the question required to write about singapore's policies to deal with market externalities. and i have absoultely no idea what policies singapore has. and in the middle of the exam is no time to think about it.
sumi was saying that i seem so zen calm. weird though. the only time i had a panic attack during the As was during GP. other than that... while people around me were all going slightly hysterical. weird. so zen. wonder why. even grace was seemed slightly panicky. maybe, for econs anyway, it's cos i'm already prepared for the worse case scenerio - failure. maybe if we prepare for the worse, we won't feel so bad?
anyway, exam time is no life time. thursday verena is having steamboat at her house and i can't go. as usual. have pc on friday so have to prepare at home. sad. friday, mummy, andrew, jonathan and linus are going to watch 'the incredibles'. they've got 4 free tickets. but i can't go also cos my exam ends too late to rush to the cinema. sigh. oh the trials of being a student. never mind. once 24 nov is past, freedom is mine!!! muahahahahahaha!!!!!!!!!!!
ok, some other stuff. last sunday was ruth's holy communion. no offense to anyone but it wasn't exactly obvious that there was a communion. with the exception of fr khoo mentioning it at the beginning of mass and during the homily (just a mention, mind you) there was almost no indication that it was a special day. what a difference from my time. during my time, we had to do the readings, offertery... time changes. cos of the confirmation camp, there were so few members in the choir. wow, hadn't sang so properly since i left mj choir. have to do some vocal training on my own so that i won't lapse.
oh well, all for now. cya next time!!
Saturday, November 13, 2004
david copperfield quiz results
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prince charming or hercules or...
i should be studying now. i am actually. i've got the ivle on for econs essay outlines on the other window. but don't tell anyone i'm blogging and studying at the same time.
well, i thought i'd like to comment on something i came across recently. some time ago, i was answering a friendster questionaire (you know the type that asks questions about yourself and such. i'm bored to that extent) there was a question that asked which one would you pick: prince charming or hercules?
i picked prince charming. figured that it's no use if the guy is hercules if he's uncouth, rude and vulgar. :D (no offense to guys out there) but on reflection, i think i prefer a superman, particularly the smallville/christopher reeves type of superman, not the cartoon type.
my reason being that prince charming may be nice but he may be a wimp. (again no offense to guys out there) prince charming may be charming but may not be so sincere (ref Shrek 2). i've never seen christopher reeves' superman but i've seen articles since his death. the superman i see in that and in the smallville series is one that is human, and capable of feeling human emotions. quote from an article: "he summoned all his energy and flung himself around the globe countless times to make time go backwards and bring Lois Lane back to life...and for the first time, i saw a superbeing onscreen shed tears" *so touching* i love reluctant superheros.
isn't that just so wonderfully human and comforting. *sigh* i feel love sick. in the smallville series, clarke kent knows how it feels to be discriminated and different from others and isolated from the in group. it's like, superman feels just like a normal person can. take away his superpowers and he'll be just like an everyman in the street. i think that's important in a guy, that he be able to really feel emotions and not act macho or anything. i guess it's easier to relate to superman than to prince charming and hercules. maybe superman is a mix of the two.
another superhero like that, i think, is spiderman. (i think so, from what i gather from the trailers of spiderman 2) anyway, the point is that a guy shouldn't be so perfect. it's scary for a person to be perfect. i'm sure girls would love a prince charming or hercules, yet, they would want someone who (erm...how to phrase it?) well, for me anyway, someone who understands what it's like to be marginalised and outcast, who knows what it's like to be weak and feel weakness. i think that makes a guy's greatest strength, to be able to feel and accept weakness, someone who's average and yet somehow isn't. (confused? i am too.)
ok, to cut the confusion, i think that when a person is in love, the guy/gal may be ordinary and average but in the other person's eyes, he/she is superman/woman. it's kinda a matter of perspective. i mean, would you prefer to spend the rest of your life with a person who is totally charming/macho and not being much else, or would you prefer to spend it with a person who can understand and really love?
(bit long, sorry about that. just had inspiration so everything just comes)
well, i thought i'd like to comment on something i came across recently. some time ago, i was answering a friendster questionaire (you know the type that asks questions about yourself and such. i'm bored to that extent) there was a question that asked which one would you pick: prince charming or hercules?
i picked prince charming. figured that it's no use if the guy is hercules if he's uncouth, rude and vulgar. :D (no offense to guys out there) but on reflection, i think i prefer a superman, particularly the smallville/christopher reeves type of superman, not the cartoon type.
my reason being that prince charming may be nice but he may be a wimp. (again no offense to guys out there) prince charming may be charming but may not be so sincere (ref Shrek 2). i've never seen christopher reeves' superman but i've seen articles since his death. the superman i see in that and in the smallville series is one that is human, and capable of feeling human emotions. quote from an article: "he summoned all his energy and flung himself around the globe countless times to make time go backwards and bring Lois Lane back to life...and for the first time, i saw a superbeing onscreen shed tears" *so touching* i love reluctant superheros.
isn't that just so wonderfully human and comforting. *sigh* i feel love sick. in the smallville series, clarke kent knows how it feels to be discriminated and different from others and isolated from the in group. it's like, superman feels just like a normal person can. take away his superpowers and he'll be just like an everyman in the street. i think that's important in a guy, that he be able to really feel emotions and not act macho or anything. i guess it's easier to relate to superman than to prince charming and hercules. maybe superman is a mix of the two.
another superhero like that, i think, is spiderman. (i think so, from what i gather from the trailers of spiderman 2) anyway, the point is that a guy shouldn't be so perfect. it's scary for a person to be perfect. i'm sure girls would love a prince charming or hercules, yet, they would want someone who (erm...how to phrase it?) well, for me anyway, someone who understands what it's like to be marginalised and outcast, who knows what it's like to be weak and feel weakness. i think that makes a guy's greatest strength, to be able to feel and accept weakness, someone who's average and yet somehow isn't. (confused? i am too.)
ok, to cut the confusion, i think that when a person is in love, the guy/gal may be ordinary and average but in the other person's eyes, he/she is superman/woman. it's kinda a matter of perspective. i mean, would you prefer to spend the rest of your life with a person who is totally charming/macho and not being much else, or would you prefer to spend it with a person who can understand and really love?
(bit long, sorry about that. just had inspiration so everything just comes)
Friday, November 12, 2004
introduction
well, today's the day i attempt to create and maintain a new blog. after countless, futile tries, writing about chim philosophies, yalcs, david copperfield, stonehenge...here's my latest try. i don't guaranttee that whatever you see here is politically correct or that it'll entertain you. that's not the point of my blog. if it entertains you, good for me. since this is just an introduction, i'll see if i can give a preview of what will be on my blog. i hope to be able to write, maybe a mix of all those things above, maybe more. my opinions about things around, insights into my life... can't think right now. well, can't stay too long though. i don't know how often i will update my blog either. in short, i don't make any promises about what's going to happen on the blog. anything could happen. i never check where i land before i fly. ok, all for now. meantime, in the coming months, i hope to be able to create and write and maintain this blog. it may not look pretty now cos i don't speak html but sooner or later, i'll get it and it'll look nice.
initially, i wanted to create a totally new blog. i wanted to name it 'talitha cumi'. not that i'm very holy or anything. just that i was looking for something interesting and slightly different from other things. ('talitha cumi' comes from the bible, by the way, jesus said it when he was raising the girl from the dead. mark chapter 4 verse something.) but when i logged in, i discovered that i have this blog that i had barely touched. so it would be a waste to create a totally new blog and delete this perfectly good one. so recycle lor.
in the coming few days, don't bother checking for new posts. my a levels are midway. don't really have much time to do anything. right now, i'm taking a break from studying. (if not i'll go mad sooner or later) well, next time then.
initially, i wanted to create a totally new blog. i wanted to name it 'talitha cumi'. not that i'm very holy or anything. just that i was looking for something interesting and slightly different from other things. ('talitha cumi' comes from the bible, by the way, jesus said it when he was raising the girl from the dead. mark chapter 4 verse something.) but when i logged in, i discovered that i have this blog that i had barely touched. so it would be a waste to create a totally new blog and delete this perfectly good one. so recycle lor.
in the coming few days, don't bother checking for new posts. my a levels are midway. don't really have much time to do anything. right now, i'm taking a break from studying. (if not i'll go mad sooner or later) well, next time then.
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